25. Born in Seoul, Louisville raised.
You own everything that has happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better.
Anne Lamont
“There are fingerprints on the handles of daggers that rest in our dying chests. Let us not sugarcoat the obvious—we did this to each other, you and I.”
You cannot make someone understand a message they are not ready to receive.
Unknown
Life gives us choices. You either grab on with both hands and just go for it, or you sit on the sidelines.
Christine Feehan
“Growing up I was very much in my own head, my own world. Instead of getting a babysitter my mom would just go to work and leave me at the house. We didn’t have a TV or anything. And when there’s no one to talk to, you just become your own friend. I’d look out the window and try to imagine myself doing things. Like: ‘What would it be like if I was standing on that roof? What sort of things would I see?’ But when you do that too much, at some point you get lost. I didn’t even feel alone. It’s hard to explain, because I haven’t experienced nothing else. But it’s like: you don’t feel lonely if there’s never nobody else there. And there was never nobody else there. Alone was my normal. It was my comfortable. So when we first started dating, I didn’t know what to do. Every time we were alone I would speak non-stop. Then I’d stop myself mid-sentence and be like, ‘Damn. I’m speaking a lot. I need to shut up.’ And she’d be like: ‘No, just keep telling me what you were telling me.’ I was just so excited. I felt like l a kid with a new toy. I’m not calling her a toy, that’s not what I mean. But that’s how I felt. Like I don’t know how this works, but I can’t believe I have it. I’m in love now. For so long I’d told myself: ‘This is never going to happen.’ But then it actually happened. It was like: ‘What do I do? Where do I go now?’ Every day has been something new. Monday feels like Saturday, because every day has meaning. I’m figuring out about her, and about myself, and about the world. Like, I didn’t know you could have fun in winter. There’s so many indoor activities you can do, just simple things. Like wearing matching pajamas on New Years. I never knew about that stuff. It can be so fulfilling. Sometimes you don’t even have to do anything. Just having somebody sitting next to you makes you feel nice inside. And that’s how it is now. That’s how my life is. She’s my comfortable. When she’s not with me, I wish that she was. I feel what it feels to be alone.”
“Be good. Be good to yourself, to others, to the portion of the earth that you tread. There is already enough bitterness and bitter people, don’t play a part in that. No, for you, be kind, be open, be willing to be wrong, willing to get hurt. If you want to change the world, start with yourself. The very act of kindness is as contagious as yawning, I promise you. Act with no intention of reciprocation. I promise you won’t walk away empty handed. I promise, life is so much more beautiful when you try.”— no one said it to me, so I say it to myself
couldn’t wait, had to buy and pot these little gems 🌵🌼🌵
such a sucker for cropped tops and corsets 👌
Work the hardest on the days you don’t feel like caring at all. These are the most important days.
1. I’m getting a promotion at work
2. Several friends have confided/vented to me in the past week, and I’m always happy they want to share their feelings with me. That’s trust and that’s beautiful.
3. I spoke to several incredible local farmers whose passion, strong ethics, and loyalty towards community reassured me that I’m using my talents for good and I’m on the right track (no matter how discouraged I may get at times)
4. I got to talk to my dear friend Cookie, who inspires and motivates me. AND she’s going to take on the design work for my organic skincare company as a project!
5. Working on skincare products is as fun as it is a continual learning process for me. Researching and trial & error producing has been such a positive de-stressor
6. Boy makes me smile and laugh and want to die from his sweetness and overall wonderful self daily.
7. My energy isn’t being wasted on people and things that bring negativity or stagnation.
8. I’m sassier, sharper, and more hopeful than ever
I didn’t exactly see this coming, and that’s probably a good thing. Weird to actually like someone after months of feeling like shit and not wanting anything to do with guys because of my last relationship.Guys, be nice to the girl you like. Be courteous, be real, if she’s in a bind and you can help, be that guy. Be observant, make her laugh. If she likes you too, don’t sweat the small shit. Life tends to happen like it should. Take your chances, have your moments. You could be holding her soon.
the past week and a half in a nutshell.
lots of work, lots of cigs, lots of late nights
